Wonderland

Merry Christmas Again.

2009-12-26T02:23:00Z

Though i pretty much spent mine yesterday.
I was glad RinRin was able to visit, even though she had to leave around 7.
But today, the real christmas day, boring.
I caved away in my room and tried waching a bootleg version of the Princess and the Frog. I have to wait another 54 minutes to watch the rest because I don't have a paid account to the host site. blah. I did my nails, did my networking...
Then when everyone left to go buy fireworks, I stayed behind and ate, wached a little tv, just to get out of my room, and had ME TIME.
Yes, I am alone right now on Christmas, but this is all I wanted. I don't enjoy being in a room full of loud people. No, sir.

BUT I still can't believe I only got one present. Funny. But hey, I was the one who told myself I didn't want anything this year, right? So who cares, this present is great.
(it's the reeeeaaaallllly soft fuzzy blankets) mine doesn't have a cutesy design, it's just a slate color, but it's big and like I said, soft *that's what she said* :D

SO, merry Christmas once again to you all.

~esh~

Merry Christmas?

2009-12-25T06:54:49Z

Maybe its just me, but I think as I get older, Christmas tends to not exist more and more.. Know what I mean? In the past, I remember not being able to wait for Christmas. I remember waking up and being so excited. Now, its like I loath the very idea of it all.

I love driving around and seeing the beautiful lights and the beautiful fire hazards... But now, the more I look, the more I realize that nobody decorates anymore... Is that just me? Is that just my mind not seeing the things I used to look forward to? I remember last christmas... That didn't even feel like one either. I was happy, don't get me wrong... But I didn't feel any spirit.

The school won't even let us wear a damn santa hat. What's that all about? This year, we didn't put up a fake tree either. We didn't hang the cute little lights under the doorway like we did one year. So as I lay here in my room, the only spirit I see, are my lights, that I have hung up. And they arn't even christmas lights. ~for shame.

I know people have reasons for not liking this time of year, loved ones passing away, bad memories, or drama. For me it's the stress. Everyone is always rushing last minute and I get caught up in the fuss. I tend to get in the way at times, and when I try to help its like "I can't do anything right" but I shouldn't complain, not at all...

But anyways, I'm just saying, in the mind of somebody who feels they had to grow up too fast, Christmas has no meaning, and it no longer exists. I wish I felt differently, like most people should, but people change right? I can only feel happy for others who enjoy this time of year, but not for myself. Life goes on, with or without christmas, no? So grow up, grow old, have a Merry Christmas. Now you know how I feel.

~esh~
Happy Holidays.

Today Was Nice

2009-12-24T03:57:20Z

Got to hang out with Lumi, which is rare.
Went to the mall, which wasn't as full as I expected.
Got to go shopping, which I am very good at :)

I had 40$ got left with just one buck, but I stretched that hoe!
Got so many cute things :)
Happy. I hope to do that again soon.<3

anyways, Christmas is near, no?
oh joy? I D K
Tomorrow will be a long day, and I won't be online for a while
~going to pick up my brother. ~sigh~

Ideas, Art and the Creative Mind

2009-12-23T01:50:51Z

~I can't sleep its 12:30 a.m.
So I'm writing this in my blackberry and I shod post it today in the afternoon :]~
also, sorry for grammar errors, since I didn't type this on word or anything.

We all like to think that we are the original everything. The original "emo" the original "gangstah" the original what ever you may be. But the truth is, pretty much everything has ben done. Your brilliant idea of something new, has already ben thought of from somebody years ago. Its funny when you think about it.

Take fashion for instance, people re create ideas, not make new ones. They embellish old things to make them seem new.

My point is... Well, I'm not sure. But when somebody says, "I started that." Did you really? Or has it already ben done, and are you just re-creating it? Huh? Think about that.

Ill admit, I say that myself, and I get mad when others copy me. But who am I copying? So we all get influenced by others, and we all get mad when others take the ideas wee claim. So is it possible to do anything original now a days? Sure it is. But you have to be over the top, you have to make it different, youhave to make it your own. Easier said than done for some.

In no way am I hating on fashion or the creative mind, I'm just saying that I think nothing in the world is new. I love to see new things and fresh ideas, but I just feel like the whole world is either a copy cat, or so old that everything has ben done. ~I know there are still new things though. We all just have yet to witness them~

So at 2something a.m. (Right as I decided to call it quits, and try to sleep) I got a tweet alert from a Brandon Hilton saying this:
"Brandon_Hilton: I officially created 'Electrofagtronica' mark it down in history! I wanted to create a new genre, breaking barriers! EQUALITY BITCHES YES!!!"
It made me mad, and satisfied to know I was right. Yes, I am always right, even when I am wrong. No?

Thank you for reading. . .

Writer's Block: Starting from Scratch

2009-12-17T23:25:18Z

What would it take to get you to start a new life on a new world?

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New world, as in like a planet, or another country?
Well I think for me to give up all I have, the government would have to really screw up, or if I or my family were in serious danger.

Often I think about what things would be like if I went to another place, just to start over. I wouldn't even know where to begin.

A New Year Comes Soon.

2009-12-10T02:52:08Z

When I think about last year, it seems like the year has passed by way to fast. I remember being in third grade, thinking one whole year took an eternity to get over with. I also remember teachers and other adults always saying that as you grow up, the years tend to go by faster. I never thought they would go by faster for me, but I was wrong.

A new year is close now. I remember last New Years so perfectly. I remember the things that went through my mind, and all the special goals I wanted to accomplish, funny, how all of the goals died too quickly. I wanted to confess my mind to somebody but then emotions turned into something else, and now I have no need to speak of it, which is really all for the best, I don’t mind. I also wanted to be more patient with myself and others, that idea is pretty much fail as well. Haha… So many things change in one year, so many things stay the same. Goals for the next year? I have none. I realize when I make a goal, I only end up forgetting it in a month or so. My mind is constantly changing, so to make personal goals is like… I don’t even know. Do I just suck at making goals? Or is it another thing that gets better as you get older. When I get older, will I know how to achieve such goals?

Really, it seems like just yesterday I saw my cousin for the last time. Thinking back to that moment makes me feel warm :) I hope to see him again in the future. I always feel sad when December comes to an end. I don’t know why… maybe because it’s like you have to start over, or anew. ~But that can also be a good thing. I don’t even much enjoy the holidays anymore. They become too much of a hassle I think. I would like to travel one Christmas to some far away place, and not have to worry about anything at all. I want nothing this year. I get tired of daily routine, and somehow, Christmas has become a part of that routine.

Anyways, I am tired of this slow ass wifi, and I want to freaking watch WishBone. WTH youtube, you fail at capturing the 90’s.

Chinese Class Field Trip 2009 :)

2009-12-06T20:05:42Z

I had so much fun :) I had been waiting for this since October, maybe a little longer :)We took a bus, picked up Li Lao Shi's (our Chinese teacher) other class from College Park High School, and then headed off to China Town in Houston. :)

The first stop was the 99 Ranch Market, which is like the HEB of Asian people, it was amazing :) They were all so friendly to us, they gave us a tour and a free meal which was so yummy! There was this one shop with so many amazing jewelries and knock off brand names, I was so spazzing over the cuteness :) -even if they were knock offs. the bakery there, was so cool. A single slice of fancy cake was only 2.99. I wanted to get one but I had already spent a good amount on one of the necklaces from the jewelry shop, I had only $15. So I decided to wait and save the rest of my money.

The next stop was a shopping square at the real China Town area, there we split up into groups again and we walked into a video shop, which I had no idea who was who. Haha. but I did find a S.H.E cd, but didn't buy it, although it was cheap 4.99 for 10 songs :) And then we wandered into an Italian ice cream place (in China Town?) and I got a 4 flavored ice cream thing, It was petty cheap, but i started to regret it later on, but then realized it was okay, since I tried new flavors :D

After that, we headed into the talent show! :) I took several videos, witch I am still uploading haha. Check out my channel if you want. And there, we got to see other high school students preform. There were so many HAWT Asian guys, man you don't even know... maybe you do but anyways... haha XD While we got a bit tired of watching, my group wandered off into a book store, where all the books and magazines were purely in Chinese character, it was cool to see. We bought a few things there, and I, with the extra money I had, spent the rest :) And then we got a free red tote bag that the people handed out :)

After the show, it was time to go. I was so bummed out, I wanted to stay longer haha. Our teacher says that next year we might be able to go to real China :) that would be so much fun, I am very excited for that :) So happy our school offers this class. Mrs. Lee is the best teacher ever :)

My channel:
http://www.youtube.com/user/emirushadow

To Whom It May Concern.

2009-12-03T04:38:21Z

It’s funny, when I hear that phrase, I think about a suicide letter or something.

But no, I'm just going to talk indirectly to the world right now.

I am not perfect, I will never be perfect. I realized this ling ago. I try so hard to live up to peoples standards, my mother, my father, my friends, and even myself… it doesn’t work. And I accept that. I can’t read minds, even though some people think I look like I can, I don’t know what’s wrong in your world. Honestly, do I care? I’m in this for myself first. It’s about me. I have my own problems to fix.

I’m sorry that I can’t be the super being that you want me to be. I’m sorry I can’t devote every moment of my life with you. I’m sorry for not being able to laugh like others do.

I am a thinker. I think about things but only to myself. And only I know and understand these things. I could never truly share my thoughts for they are too harsh and cold. I can’t tell you the truth, I can’t tell the world the truth, but this is the way we all are.

Its not my fault… is it? We all make mistakes, some more than others. I see myself as one who hardly makes any and when I do I beat myself up for it. I am obsessed with being too perfect. I don’t ever want to be late, I don’t ever want to lose track of time, I font ever want to forget a promise, or a favor. And I freak out when my buttons fall off.

I honestly don’t know my point… but I am not perfect you are not perfect; the person next door is not perfect. I am aware but I need to accept it in depth.

I will never be what you want me to be, only what I want to make of myself. I do not belong to you. I need air to breathe. I cannot be there all the time. I can’t be the thing you expect.

Writer's Block: Name your passion

2009-12-03T01:43:43Z

What are you most passionate about and why?

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I like this question. Art is my passion. With art, I think about music and fashion.
To me the two go hand in hand. Fashion is so important to me not only because I want to be a designer when I grow up, but because I realize it's one of the only things that makes me feel happy. Its strange :)And music is important because Its another self expression, but it doesn't really mean you are what you listen to, and fashion is never what you wear.
you make the clothing, the clothing doesn't make you
You make the music, the music doesn't make you.
(half ass answer, I'm in a rush for no reason)

2 new additions

2009-12-01T04:01:21Z

I found out yesterday that we have 2 new doggies. They are so adorable. Yea its weird how I live in this house, not realizing that there are 2 new puppies in my backyard.

SO I was alone yesterday, wich is fine, I love to be alone in the house, no noise, nobody to bother me. And I look at Diamond, our pit bull. Then I notice 2 other little creatures.

I'm like, are they lost? Are we waching them for somebody? So I go outside and pet them. The dark brown one is so soft! I didnt get to touch the lighter one though. I shall post pictures as soon as I get one that is presentable ^o^

So then I call my mom, and ask her who they belong to, and she says they are ours.

Haha :) funny huh?

Onew Loves Me Back XD

2009-11-29T06:22:40Z

The original, and my edit version. haha XD I had this idea last night, but I kept on messing up so I decided to do it today :)

~oh, yea that's a picture of me btw, duh :)
KEKEKEKE XD

I love ONEW haha XD

~he's from the kpop boy group SHINee.
Listen to them. :)

I'm a Poupee Girl

2009-11-29T05:52:16Z

I'm so addicted.
I'ts like DeviantART, but for clothing.
It's so cute. And I find myself on it almost all day.
haha XD

But what it is, you take pictures of your cloths, and post them. You can favorite other's items (the action is called Suteki) and you can comment them too. When you post new cloths, comment, or dress up your Poupee (that's your little verision of you) you get ribbons (wich is money) and you use them to buy items for your poupee. To some that may not sound exciting, but for a fashion crazed mofo loviing person like myself, it's the coolest thing :)

So if you want to see my style, and the types of things I like to wear, check out my closet :]

So yea, make an account! Its so much fun. ~for me, I hope it is for you too.

To be Thankful

2009-11-27T03:34:39Z

So thanksgiving.. Honestly, I don't like it. Why does it take one day for others to realize all the things they are thankful for? HMMM? I go through a lot of the things I have and I become aware, I let myself know that I am grateful for what I have.

I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to be with family, why, I don't know. Maybe I just don't like the yelling and complaining. But the holidays always end up the same, not good. You know what it is? I think its my step-dad. Yea play the "Evil Step-dad" card... But I think its true.. GOSH. But today, didn't go as bad as I thought.

So, let me fill you in on part of my life's story.
My little brother, 13, is kind of special ed, if you know what I mean. And so during the summer, the state took custody (for reasons I will not say) and now he's living in a home with a few other kids like him. So the last time I saw him was during the summer, I left to go visit my dad, and wasn't able to see him one last time(also didn't see him for his birthday.) . So I'll admit, hes a pain and makes everything hard, and he steals my things, and breaks them... But there is an empty place now. There is no more noise like there used to be, no more toys laying around the floor -actually there still are, but they're not his toys.

Yes, life is easier for ME. But its hard on my mom. My step-dad got mad at me last week because I never comfort her and I never tell her that "I'm here for you." Sorry, I was never comforted so Its not my fault I don't know how to make somebody feel better.

So today, being thanksgiving and all, we finally went to go see him. Hes so much taller... Even more than me and I'm 16. He was very shaky because of all the medication they give him (he has anger problems and they also give him meds to help him go to sleep) It was awkward to be there. In a house, with other kids, who seemed happy, but you never know what its like on the other side. It was awkward to be there, all of us not talking much. It was awkward to be there, and me not being able to be a good sister, not being able to comfort my own brother, who has gone through so much. We weren't even there for too long. I think we were there for about 40 minutes. I would like for my family to stay longer if I were him. Mom said next week we would visit again. I think I should go. If I cant tell him I care, I should at least show up. ~show him?

If I could change anything in my life, I think I would have changed myself. I wish I could be someone who loves to be around her family, someone who laughs freely. Someone who can talk about anything with her parents. But why didn't I turn out that way? Where did I go wrong... I feel bad because I'm not close to my family, the ones I see everyday, the only ones who really care about me *according to the stepfather.

This taught me something. I'm not too sure what it is. But I am grateful. I already know I have gratitude. I'm glad I have a mom who tries her best. I'm glad I have great health. I'm thankful for this life, even though many times I wish I didn't have it. But I know its my job to keep it, because this world is for me. This world is for all of us and we have to take care of it.

Happy Thanksgiving. Think about the things around you everyday, not just on this day.

Writer's Block: First Things First

2009-11-20T01:02:03Z

What’s the first thing you do when you log into your computer everyday?

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The first things... I always log on to my social networks.
I check myspace, deviantart, gaiaonline, my email accounts, and all that

After I finish that, I start to google anything that I feel is necessary haha.
And then I youtube things, while getting back to my networks :)

Pretty basic... And if Im not on the internet, Im just listening to my music, photo editing, or writing in Microsoft word :)

Writer's Block: Gifted Ideas

2009-11-18T00:57:42Z

What’s the perfect gift to give to the person who has everything?

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These questions are always hard for me to answer, so I always have to think about it for a while... The perfect gift for somebody who has everything..

I would give them nothing, but I would spend time with them.
If they have everything, then they have no need for a gift, but I would think the best gift would be time together.

~cheesey, no?

Oni-Con, K's Guitar Pick

2009-11-15T18:51:03Z

If you read one of my previous entries about how Oni-con 09 went, then this is the guitar pick I got from K, of BORN.

And I tried styling my hair a different way, like flippy visual kei, you know what I mean, it didnt go as bad as I thought, but my hair needs a trim so it could have gone better. but next time I will do my best.

Writer's Block: Name your talent

2009-11-15T18:21:04Z

If you could have one extraordinary talent, what would you choose and why?

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I would want to be a musical protegee.

Because, I envy anybody who can play any instrument. I think its a great talent that can get you far in life, if you really want it to.

If i had that talent, I would probably start a band, or maybe a symphony. I would want to play the guitar, violin, and piano. If i could do that, that would be so amazing <3

I pet my dog for the first time...

2009-11-13T01:40:50Z

I know this is strange to say, but yesterday was the first time I actually pet my god, Diamond. I was home alone with my baby brother, waiting for mom to come back, and since the daylight savings time is in action, it was a bit darker. So my dog is jumping on the door window, yes my dog jumps on the back yard door, it’s one of those sliding window ones. And I hear her whine, like all dogs do. So I figure its cold outside, so why don’t I put her inside early.

What really makes me sad, is we keep her in a cage at night, in the garage, and it’s very dark. But by day, we let her in the backyard, which is a decent size for one pit bull. So im getting the cage ready for her to go inside. I end up closing her in it… but I decide to actually touch her. So I pet her head. And I could tell she likes it. But it was very awkward because the cage has small openings so I couldn’t really pet her properly. So I decided to open the cage and pet her the right way. It was strange because the last time I really touched her was when she was a puppy.

Now she’s too big to handle and she’s really strong, so I’m scared to do much with her. But I always think about it… I love animals, but I don’t do anything with our own pet… well yea, she isn’t my dog, but she’s, shall I say, “part of the family?” I might be the only one who thinks so… I’ve always wanted to take her out for a walk, at least just once… we’ve had her for about 3 years already, and not once do I remember an act of love for her.

So this morning I told one of my good friends, and she looked at me like I was crazy, “how do you not pet your dog?” it’s not as hard as it sounds, if she’s an outdoor pet and I don’t ever go outside…
It’s funny because I want to be a fashion designer right? And my motivation, was to be charitable. I wanted to design things and make money to go towards animals who have no homes, you know, stuff like that. But does that even fit my image if I don’t pay attention to the one right in front of me? true sheds big, and maybe rough, but there should be something I can do… I think from now on, when I put her inside, I should give her more attention. I want to tell mom that we should take her out for a walk one day. :)

New interest in music

2009-11-11T01:36:19Z

so ever since this year started (junior year), ive taken anew interest.. Chinese, yes, i am learning Chinese in school! amazing, i feel so lucky because only 3 class periods are allowed to be in it. so my teacher is so amazing i love her! and shes a great teacher :)

and yea, shes teaching us the language and prononciation, and the characters. its the best class, im so glad the chool finaly offerd an asian language for a class. so hey, im going to graduate with 4 foregin lang credits, heeey!! :) haha.

and yea, she told us today about a beatuful song, and she gives us lyrics, so we can learn new songs, and they help us out too, as funny as it is. todays song was called,Tong Hua, meaning fairytale. she showed us the video after she translated it for us and sang it for us...
the song said somehting like, i forgot how long its ben since i heard you and yo told me the story of the one you loved best, and i wish i could become the angel inside your heart open your hands and chenge them into wings to protect you.

and the video was so sad. but im glad to be in her class. :) makes this year so worth it.

www.youtube.com/watch

this is how my oni-con BORN experience went..

2009-11-03T04:12:52Z

So this is how the whole story went… it was at oni-con, right? So on Friday, the first day, I was so happy to finally be able to see the concert, because I never get to go on the concert days. And so I walked in, and, missed the first half. So echostram was playing, but I was still so happy to finally see them. I was like, “OMG TOMO I LOVE YOU’’ and whatnot, you know how I get. So I think we only got to see about 3 songs, but they were still so very amazing.

So when they finished, I was like… hmmm should I leave now? But I was like, neh, I’ll stick around. Omg, im so glad I didn’t leave. The next band that came up was Born. And I was like, well I never bothered to look them up so ill support them here. Man, I screamed so loud, as loud as I could. They were so amazing. Then they all started to throw their stuff into the crowd. I got mad because they only threw things into the center and left side, not my side. And at the end, K, the guitarist threw his pick into the crowd. My heart was like beating so hard because he actually threw it in our direction! So as soon as it landed on the ground, I started to look for that hoe, it was too dark so it was sooo hard to find. After a while I thought it was already taken, because I couldn’t find it. So then out of nowhere Robert screams, “I found it!” AHHHH!!! So me and Brittany start to attack him, trying to get him to let it go. Surprisingly, he didn’t let go. So I started to beg him… yea.. and in the end he let me have it.. and guess what? I started to cry.. yea.

I never thought it would be lucky ol me to get someones guitar pick!!! So after that I was so happy! And then the next day, Saturday, all the guests did the QandA sessions. Born was the last to show up.. and once again I thought, should I go?? Then once again I was like, neh ill stay. Omg it was so worth it! THEY WERE SO FUNNY. It made me love them even more… and it made me love K even more!!! I thought they would be all quiet and give one word answers, but they said some funny ass things, I was so surprised. My stomach started to hurt because I was nervous on whether or not to ask for the aughtograph right then and there. Something just told me to wait. Oh, and at the end, while the band left the room, I stole their bottled water.. yup that’s me.. buahaha. I kept on getting nervous after that, just thinking about it (the aughtograph.). I felt like I was about to throw up several times.

So then a few hours later, they were selling merch at one of the booths… and omg, there were waaay too many people. Everyone was pushing and body heat was all crazy. It was uncomfortable… so I thought… should I leave??? Yea.. I decided to stay and make it to the front! Omg.. so worth it!!! Once I got close enough.. I yelled out, “K!!!!!!” and he looked at me. I held up the pick so he could see it. And then his face lit up in a smile and he held a thumbs up sign. And so I asked, “can you sign it?!” he either didn’t understand me, or couldn’t hear me over the swarming fans.. so I asked again. and then right when he understood, the damn translator jumped right in front and said, “you have to wait till aughtograph session!” so I was like.. Damn it.. so I held out my hand, to just touch his until I got to see him again. and it was so funny we did an akward hand shake, that ended up being a thumb war… wtf, haha the Japanese are so funny. So I left… and my face turned so red… and guess what? I started to cry again. my stomach got all sick again, but in the good way… so I had to wait once again till the next time.

So hours passed and finaly the time came… I was waiting in line with Brittany and a new girl we had just met, Audry. Then Born walked out of the little back room and K was the last in the band line so I reached out again to touch his hand… I was in the front of the line, wich was so great because I didn’t have to wait so long. I waited for only about 5 minutes and once it was my turn I got out the free magazine they handed out earlier. First, the other members signed and K was the last in line, wich was perfect… I got a kiss from the first one, wich was very soft, and pound hand shakes from the other three. Finaly when I reached K, I handed him the magazine, after he signed it, I slid the pick to him. he looked back up at me and pointed at me, his smile said that he rememberd me. of course, he doesn’t speak engrish, but it was easy to read. And then I asked for a kiss. He was like, what?? “a kisss???” I repeated. His face was like, hmm I don’t know… then I was like… awww. So then he said yes, and kissed me! gah!! So worth it. So then I said my thank yous and walked out the room… and guess what??? I cried.. Again! omg. Both me and Brittany cried that time. We had both gotten jrock star kisses! And it was funny because the girls that were in front of us saw and got jealous, they were the ones who made them sign all these ridiculous things on their shirts. Brittany said they were like, “OMG, he kissed her!!!” it was so funny. So we said goodbye to Audry and went to find De’Anna, while trying not to look like fools with tears! HAH.

That was the last time I saw them. Afterwards as I sat down, my hands were shaking. I couldn’t text at all. It was funny and my heart was still beating. So me and her sat there, trying to calm down like some crazy ass mofos.. and then we took another drink from our “holy water” we both felt like this was some sort of cruel dream that we would just have to wake up from in a few seconds. It was the greatest moment in time for me. I had never ben to a concert, never shook hands with a famous person, never got an aughtograph, and never ben kissed by a famous person! Omg.

So that was how it went, as far as the band Born goes. I have another whole story about Tomo and Buranden at the rave. Hahah! XD –I took videos… teehee

So I feel so incredibly lucky, I hope they will come to America again soon, and I hope K remembers, and maybe I’ll ask for another ;D buahaha. So if you read all of this, thanks haha.

Omg… so worth it. It was the best Halloween ever, and the best con ever too! So many amazing things happened. My heart still pounds each time I think about it.

Writer's Block: Celebrity Sightings

2009-11-03T04:07:20Z

If one day you meet your favorite super star, what questions you would like to do to him/her?

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i would say, "may i have a kiss?"

:)

Writer's Block: Celebrity Sightings

2008-03-20T19:08:09Z

If one day you meet your favorite super star, what questions you would like to do to him/her?

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how was your day?

so what made you want to do what you do?

So anyways

2008-03-09T21:15:54Z

i am bored and trying to get the hang of this LJ thing i only did this cuz i wanted to but never did and cuz my best friend asked me to lol so yea im trying to get used to this lol so anywho how are you all today? i hope that this next week will be okay. cuz this thurday will be my 15th birthday adn i just know that it might suck ass lol... so yea. anyways... like i had said on my profile, i am more of a myspace user but i will try my best to get on here as much as possible. so umm yea i am so bored and i dont want to go to school tomorrow D: man o well i suppose that i have to get it over with.. :)

if you would like to see more of my drawings, like the one below then you can go to my deviantart :D it can be found at www.seasonscall.deviantart.com i hope you will enjoy them :)

i drew this :) and its on my deviantart as well

so anywho... i love to say that lol have a nice day :)